Saturday, December 16, 2006

Roots

I AM SHE WHO SAT ON EARTHS RICH SOIL

I HEARD THE  WHISPER IN THE AIR

BEYOND THAT HILL LIES AFRICA…

YOUR DREAM WILL LEAD YOU THERE

I have of late been thinking about dreams and how important they are, how patient they are, how they wait for us… they wait for us to act, find them again when we take a wrong turn or path..rejoicing that we remember them once again because we can so easily get side tracked, stop believing that they can come true..  and are at times in the unoticed silent process of becoming.

My dream has been around a long long time, waiting for the right time, helping me grow into readyness, preparing me..The seed was planted when I was just a young girl..all of 8 or 9..I remember sitting on the grass outside my home, looking to the horizon and thinking just over the other side of that hill lies Africa, and there unseen sits a girl just like me, gazing to the horizon saying the same thing.

The colour of our skin may differ I thought,  but its the same sky that covers us, the same earth we sit upon..The world at that moment seemed such a small place..strange..just a thought away lay Africa.

Over the years, since that day Ive been in the process of preparation I believe.. a few examples not profound yet important

Ive always been terrified of heights, I once got stuck on a hillside in Germany, became like the trees that surrounded me there…..rooted…to scared to move…pertrified wood, had to edge down on my bottom to reach a place where the vertigo subsided enough to allow me to stand and walk again..So it was a great feat for me to one day decide to go up in a glider and actually float like a bird in the skies..to face my fear and stick with it..not let it stop me

At the age when most of my peers were taking driving lessons, I opted for riding lessons …very impractical given the days of getting from A to B by horseback were well and truly over…but an essential skill if one wants to go galloping across the plains of Africa near the wild ones….the bruises didnt seem to matter nor the John Wayne walk.

A few years ago I experienced a time when all I had were a few possessions…I made a choice to move to surrender all that truly mattered to me…simply because my heart knew there was no other way…I learned that I can live with the want…I learnt that all I would ever truly need lay inside..I learnt that surrender does not necessarily mean permanent loss, that those who loved and saw me for who I am, found me, waiting for them just over the horizon, always just a whisper away.

The picture is symbolic of what I do today…Hold patiently and gently within my grasp the seed of that dream…now with tiny shoots…growing…A dream that I must follow without knowing why… yet the getting to where I am today has been every inch a part of the same dreams journey…..I am that plant Ive just realised………still green with much to learn yet very much alive and thriving..

Onward and upward  LOL

  

 

 

 

 

 

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Wednesday, December 13, 2006

FIRST TRIP OUT AND ouch !!!

*ALWAYS REMEMBER THE JOURNEY OF A THOUSAND MILES BEGINS WITH ONE SMALL STEP*(And sometimes I trip!!!!!)

 

 

 WISE WORDS INDEED AND THATS WHAT IM REMINDING MYSELF THIS MORNING……. Blogging is not as easy as  it would first appear me thinks….and thank Ruth for your words of encouragement…Deja vu…yes Lol

Deep breathe, count to ten, start all over again…..

 Today I think I learned a little lesson in the importance of planning and preparation….As I have said my dream is to travel…part of this dream an important part will be keeping in contact with those that matter to me, all my loved ones and of course that means using modern technology……………..also recording and being able to share the experience in a convenient quick format………… A hand written journal still feels more appealing at this point ( note technology phobia popping in an waving cheerily in the background) Sealed However I plod on undaunted….:)

Communication is obviously going to be very important to me….How on earth will I be able to make that call from the bush, i.e. Did you wash behind your ears this morning, have you fed the dog? Was the ticket I bought before I left a winner and no you cant have a share!  I jest……..

 Ive always known that preparation, planning will be crucial…. So will be having the courage to make mistakes, take informed risks…and enjoy having fun doing so …….Right now Im really excited about attempting to post a picture and doing something creative….but baby steps and this is me just sitting at my computer never mind Africa and Lions and things that go bump in the night, creepy crawlies etc etc

 

I hasten to add I cant wait and look forward………….to the first picture on here….the hundreds of other small steps it takes….I will savour each one…. but right now…Im off outside to let the wind play with my hair, get cold so I can later feel the delicious pleasure of warming up ……………Wanna come?

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How did I get here?

As I write Im wondering and trying to remember how I got here……The first blog I read that caught my attention and touched something deep inside that kept me coming back. That led to the others so varied that kept me coming back, then leaving a comment here and there…….would it matter…would they matter-my words.  So many beautiful creations…so many wise words…so much diversity..so many gifting a glimpse of their personal lives, the art, the passion and at times the struggle, the simple sharing of words and images taking anothers time and effort..opening up a whole new perspective, new vision

Then the niggling feeling that somehow I was being greedy, sitting here being fed..nourished, my comfort zones being challenged, words that lingered……..the feeling that this is taking me on a journey with no destination, the mystery, the exploration……….the big question………What do I have to offer…If I reach inside myself…what can I bring?

Im a gypsy at heart…its in my blood..I love to wander/wonder and explore both pysical and mental……..Every now and then my soul gets seized by this desire to take off……..Driving home sometimes my automatic pilot  turns the wheel to the left yet part of me has carried on travelling down that highway…I long to travel in reality……..however being mother to seven children and raising them, seeing them through degrees, supporting them till they got set up and I could breathe that sigh Ahhh thats it!!!    Now I can go, now I can make the preparations, the plans.. Now its my turn

There is so much I want to see, so many places I want to go…so many experiences I simply must experience…The african safari on horse back, sleeping under the stars, to be close to the wild….The orphanage I must visit…..the children, the smiles the stories, the challenge…the giving the recieving

 I Had wondered what my blog could possibilly be about, its content…its purpose….Perhaps this is simply for me….to track a dream….accompany myself on that journey….keep me strong…committed…not to let every day life side track  me as it can so easily do….

The journey begins, here… now…on this blog…first things first…must work out how to create and post and…..and…and …wish me luck this is all so new….so exciting!!!

 

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